Today's food:
2 slices of bread: 150
2 Ryvitas: 50
One small apple: 60
One coffee: 30
290 YAY!
Haha that leaves 210 spare for dinner, but I'm not really hungry so i doubt I'll eat much...
Off to ballet...
Stay Strong, Live Life, and don't be afraid to celebrate success.
Xx. Lillie.

New Goals
To be 93lbs (42kgs) or less on my birthday.
To avoid junk like chocolate, cake, etc from today onwards (if i manage to do this, i can eat whatever i want on my birthday)
To keep up my vegetarianism
To not eat more than 900 cals a day AT THE MOST.
To aim for 500cals a day.
To never eat everything on my plate.
To drink more water.

I don't know why i haven't thought of it before, but i hate hate HATE going over what i planned. So, by setting myself at 500 a day, i know for sure which days are good and which days are bad. Basically my days from now on will either be GOOD or BAD with no in betweeny 'ok' days. Under 500, good. Over 500, bad.

Anyway, time to put a face to this text, and later, perhaps a voice, i have a song i wrote with a friend a couple of years ago, she didn't really know what it was about, but you guys will, so stay tuned for that :)
Anyway,
Here goes...




Two pics, and that's all you're gonna get -for now anyway :)
Stay Strong, Live Life, and tell me what'cha think :)
Xx. Lillie

Ah, finally some time to myself where my head isn't throbbing!
My cough still lingers, but other than that, I am fully recovered, and about time too!!

Just had an extremely close call. My mum walked into my room and went onto the computer. All your lovely blogs were minimized but one click and it would have been game over. Luckily I got there just in time. Spun some story about the Internet being faster if you quit the browser and then re-open it. She took the story without question, but my heart didn't stop pounding until she was off the computer and I had cleared my Internet history. I'm usually so careful about these things, and now I'm definitely going to be even more so.

On another note, my sickly, clouded head forgot all about calories and 'good foods' and 'bad foods' and ate. A lot. So now, I have some work to do. From now on, it's green tea for breakfast, a salad for lunch and as little as I can get away with for dinner. I'm still working on my weekend eating, i need to find something relatively low cal that I can have for lunch, but it has to give me enough energy to get me through four and a half hours of ballet, if I try running on nothing I am highly likely to collapse. Any ideas?

I'm not gonna disappear again, I'm here to stay. I'm sick of being NEARLY thin enough, of being NEARLY content. I will get there, I know I will. I will post my new goals in my next post (haha that sounds funny:))
until then...
Stay strong, live life, and never give up hope.
Xx. Lillie

Long post coming... I promise.
Love you all :)
Xx. Lillie

Still sick :(

i feel like I owe you guys a really long post, but at the moment I just don't have the energy...
Longer post later, I promise :)
Xx. Lillie

Sick :(

I'm sick. :(
I hate being sick :(
It puts me in a bad mood :(
My throat is so sore that I can barely talk, let alone sing :(
My head is throbbing!!
I hate being sick :(

On the plus side, no food and no school tomorrow, although I want to go in the afternoon for French, we're having a fashion parade!:)
I hope I'm well enough...

Stay Strong, Live Life, and Keep Happy (even if you're sick)
Xx. Lillie

Sleep, Wake, School, Ballet, Homework, Sleep.
It seems i have no time for anything at the moment :(
Have become a vegetarian.
Longer Post later, when i eventually get time...
Stay Strong, Live Life, and (unlike me) leave room for FUN!!
Xx. Lillie