Enough is Enough.

Today did not go as planned.

I'm so disappointed with myself.

I'm fat.

Now all i can do is work as hard as i can at ballet and hope to work it off.

I doubt it, but i can try.

I'm fat.

I desperately cling to the promise tomorrow will bring.

It's time i took this seriously.

Goodbye food. It was nice knowing you.

Oh coffeeeeee how i looooooovvvvveee youuuuu

Wow.

The wonders of coffee.

I can think again!

Now that im back into the rhythm of things again, it's time to step it up a notch.

It's...

FOOD DIARY TIME!

Let's just hope i can remember to write in it :)

(Sorry about the multiple posts)

Now I'm full of energy.

Hopefully enough to get me through the three tests i have today :/

I'm also trying to drink as much water as possible, without having to pee like every five minutes. I'm going to attempt not to eat anything more than 4 ryvita crackery things for the rest of the day. Possibly a biscuit or an orange if i need it.

The days of snacking are about to be long gone!

(I'm feeling very self-righteous on this fine, rainy morning)

I could sit here mellowing in my thoughts all day, but i think it's time a left for school...

Be Safe, Be Strong, Be Happy :)

Xx. Lillie

Ok so i couldn't leave you all for that long

I tried, but i missed everyone, i missed the blogs that i couldn't carry over onto my other blogger account.

It was something i had to try anyway.

I think i'll just be posting the same posts on both blogs now, until i figure out what to do.

This blog needs a new layout..

On the plus side, I'm down another kilo.

Four more measly kilos to go.

This should be easy.

Hello.

I'm sorry to have left you all for so long.

I went on a trip overseas, and lost connection with the rest of the world for a while.

I have started a new blog, and while i will still be posting here every now and again, most of my blog posts will be on my new blog.

Please please please follow me to my new blog, as i really don't want to lose touch with any of you. Plus since i returned my life has become a lot more organised, meaning a lot more blog posts and a lot more comments. I feel bad when I don't have time to commend you all.

Basically, i went overseas, i found a new lease on life, i stopped hiding and started looking, and in doing so, grew up.

The new me can be found at www. alteredcolours.blogspot.com

Be Good, Be Brave, Be Strong.

Xx. Lillie

Moon Day.

It was on this day in 1969 that man first landed on the moon.

It is on this day in 2010 that a vow to become a better person.
A stronger person.
A smarter person.
A happier person


A thinner person.

I vow, as of this very instant, to:

1. Eat junk food no more than three times a year.
2.Do at least an hour of exercise every day.
3. To tell the truth as much as i can.
4. To be more organised.
5. To stay calm during times of great stress.
6. To give EVERY ballet exercise my all.
7. To remain pescetarian.
8. To get my weight down to 45 or below (and keep it there)


On this date in 1969, we reached the moon.
And it is on this date in 2010 that i attempt a feat that will require a will as fierce as those who reached the moon.



And i too, will succeed.

47.9kgs

I am almost there!
I have another three kilos to go before im truly successful, but to have finally rid myself of the huge failing streak is such a relief.
Back when i was 52ks, i was trying on one of my skirts when my mum walked in. "Hmm" she says "That skirt is pretty small on you. Time to give it to your sister i think." HA. No chance. 45 is so close. I leave on a trip to a little french speaking island with a couple of my friends from my french class in a little under three weeks. I want to be 46 at the most when i leave and hopefully under 45 by the time i get back. And thanks to my job at the pharmacy i have a mound of cash to spend on clothes, jewellery etc while im there.

If i can do this, any of you can.

So go out there and show the world what you can do!

Stay Strong, Live Life, and Never give up hope.
Xx. Lillie

Woo! Optus just gave me $20 free credit.
If you want to text me and live in Australia, feel free.
0422707413

I've had my feast. 

Now it's time to get serious. 

Goodbye food. 

Hello thin.