I'm back.

So here I am.

For those of you who read my last post, my friend seems to be ok, although I'm always tentative to say that. She came over yesterday and we spent the entire day talking.
I was supposed to be studying for exams (they're this week! ARGH), but sometimes other things are more important.

On other news, my room is clean (always a good sign), and I feel strangely motivated. I decided yesterday that I would try writing everything I eat for the day on here, in the hope that it would inspire me to eat well (by 'well', not well, but.. well? ekdlish you get what i mean).

Exams this week :O For some strange reason unbeknownst to me, I feel very calm and nonplussed about the whole thing. I'm sure I won't feel so calm on the day of the exams though... eek!

I swore I would be more organised after I got back from overseas, and in a way, I have been, but it's a work in progress. All steps towards building the new super-me.

Ho hum, I'd better get ready, I have classes soon.

Thankyou all for your support recently, it means a lot.

Xx. Lillie

Still in a State of Shock

One of my best friends tried to kill herself on Wednesday. Apart from her family, I'm the only one that knows. My hands are still shaking so I won't keep writing now.

Sorry for being away so long, things get hectic.

Xx. Lillie

And so...

The plan starts today. I'll add in little things as I go along. At the moment I've altered it to:

Breakfast: Coffee and an Orange

Lunch: Two dry Crackers

After Classes: Egg White Omelette

Dinner: Tea, Tuna/an Orange/Two dry Crackers.

Hmm...

I shall see how this goes.

Wish me luck! (and sorry for the mind-numbingly boring post)

I had a horrible day yesterday. I don't really even know why. Maybe I'll tell you all about it tomorrow, but for now..

Stay Strong, Live Life and Be Happy, because every single one of you deserves to.

Xx. Lillie

Hashimotonono.

I think.. I need a new plan.

I'm exhausted. It's more to do with the fact that the silly doctor keeps trying to lower the dosage of my medication for Hashimotos. Face it doc, my thyroid is never going to start working at full capacity again, so kindly please stop zapping me of all energy and making me gain a ridiculous amount of weight for no reason. In other words, STOP MESSING WITH MY METABOLISM! Thankyou.

I think I need a plan. The problem with not having a plan is that things always seem to make their way into my mouth.. So no more go with the flow.

Breakfast: Coffee and an Orange/egg white omelette.

Lunch: Two crackers of my choice

After classes: Tea, Two fruits/vegetables.

Dinner: Nothing, or another cracker.

Hmm.. I shall write that down in some sort of code and keep it in my pocket.

Oh, and I had a ballet performance on the weekend. I think it went well.

I shall have to write a more interesting post tonight.

Au revoir.

Xx. Lillie

The ramblings of someone soon to have a caffeine deficit.

I'm conveniently skipping over what I had for dinner last night. I'll just say it concerned family friends and pizza. Oh joy.

Having said that, my next ballet performance is on Friday and Saturday night. Three hours of ballet class and rehearsals today, tech rehearsal tomorrow, dress rehearsal on Thursday and the the Performance! I'm not a huge fan of performing, but I am a little excited about this one.

To answer your questions, I've been doing ballet since I was three. That makes me sound like a professional, but really I'm not that good. I dance as part of a ballet company.

I've just finished my morning cup of coffee. I decided last night that I'm going to cut back on my coffee intake. More green tea and lemon, less caffeine.

I'll see how I go today, but I think I'll have an apple for a snack, capsicum for lunch and tuna or some crackers before ballet. Something else will sneak its way in, it always does, but hopefully nothing too disastrous.

I've worked out that I need to eat something between classes during the day. Otherwise I end up getting food off my friends and eating way more than I planned to anyway. Not good. So from today, I'm only eating food that I've brought with me.

Here's to getting thin!

Xx. Lillie

YOGAYOGAYOGA

I went to yoga yesterday. I'd forgotten how wonderful it was!

Today is the day. I've had coffee for breakfast. I'm not eating in between classes, I'll have some tuna before I go to ballet and then tea before I go to bed. Voila! Let's hope I ca stick to it, but I think I will.

It's so nice to be back from overseas and back to ballet. I'm constantly sore, my muscles scream at me after most classes, but that's just what you get when you go away for four months. My muscles are slowly coming back. I feel stronger and stronger every day, both emotionally and physically, and I love it.

My little sister's getting fatter. Is it so wrong that I'm just a little bit chuffed? I always used to be the thinner one. Then I grew up and got Hashimoto's and it all went downhill from there. But not for much longer. If I can do this, it won't be long before I'm the thinnest once again.

I have science lectures all day today, and then english in the afternoon. Not a bad day.

Ah, and my friend and I like the same guy, but more on that later.

Stay Strong, Live Life, Be Happy.

Xx. Lillie