I like making it, and I like going out for food with friends, but I don't actually like eating it.
Why do I eat so much then?
Essentially, I think it makes me feel more grown up.
I have to snap out of this.
Today has not been a good day.
I tried, really tried to make myself throw up last night.
I couldn't do it.
I know how you feel. I love your blog, you're a great girl.
ReplyDeleteWish you the best
I can't purge either...And I would love to have that feeling again, The feeling of not liking to eat comes and goes like the tide...
ReplyDeleteTake care love xoxo
It took me such a long time to be able to purge. It's not that you can't do it, it's probably just that it takes a lot of time and noise. It's a nasty habit. I don't recommend starting it anyway. Stay strong, dear <3
ReplyDeleteYour posture, how much liquid is mixed with your food, pressure on your stomach, throat muscles... All have to do with how you purge. It's a teetering game to figure it out, for sure. And probably better if you don't make the effort to.
ReplyDeleteI hate eating as well, it feels gross.
ReplyDeleteI love my boost juices and chai tea though
Because they keep me full ALL day with less than 100 calories :)
I feel eating is an emotional escape when things fuck up. But I am having a good week, so hopefully I will loose the weight from my 3 day binge
Keep strong, you are beautiful
xx
P.S. Come back to Aus already!!