This is far from over, you haven't seen the last of me.

Just one of the positions I have to somehow pull off tomorrow morning.

I just discovered that my ballet teacher here used to have anorexia. She gave me her memory stick with her ballet music on it for me to copy. The first file on there was labelled "Anorexia Nervosa", I assumed it was just a powerpoint for health class or something, but my curiousity got the better of me. It had pictures of her, at both her fattest and thinnest weights.

Is it bad that it's only strengthened my resolve?

My ballet performance in front of the entire school is tomorrow. I know for a fact that I'm not ready. I'll give it all I've got but I know it will be far from perfect.

I'm eating a proper breakfast tomorrow to give me the strength to get through it. After that, no food until I get to the airport on Friday morning. If I have time, I'll grab a coffee before I get on the plane.

I love flying, it feels almost as though time has stopped when you're up in the clouds.

I'm still fat. The next three days will make a difference.

I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way.

I'm down now but I'll be standing tall again.

This is far from over, you haven't seen the last of me.

Xx. Lillie