This post is as boring as plain oatmeal.

I'm having a small dilemma at the moment. I don't know whether to eat something or not. Yesterday all I had was oatmeal, today I was planning to have just oatmeal again. I haven't eaten anything so far today, and it seems like a bit of a waste to eat it. Having said that, my stomach's been grumbling at me all day, and I do have a bunch of assignments that I need some brainpower to do. Looking in the mirror, I have a long way to go, and only ten days to go there.

I think I will eat my oatmeal, but I'll make it a small bowl, just enough to keep my brain functioning well.

I don't know why, but at the moment it's so easy to avoid food. I think it's mostly because I know I only have a minuscule amount of time left.

I love the feeling of an empty stomach. Not counting today, I have nine days until I fly home. I'm doing everything I can to make sure I make it. I hope it will be enough.

Edit: I did have my small bowl of oatmeal. I then thought, "what harm could just a little more oatmeal do?". But I stopped and made myself a peppermint tea instead. I reasoned that if I still wanted more after my cup of tea, then I would know I was actually hungry and could eat more oatmeal. I didn't go back. It's these small victories that keep me going. My new aim, although whether I'll achieve it or not I don't know as of yet, it to pretty much eat my one bowl of oatmeal a day, and nothing else. It's worked for two days, surely it will work for a measly nine days more.

Only five days until I perform my solo in front of the school. I'm so worried, and I'm doing everything I can to make sure I'm perfect.

I'm going downstairs now, to see how much I weigh. I've been avoiding the scale for a while now. It sits out in front of everyone, just waiting to criticise.

This post is going nowhere, so I'll edit it later.

Goodnight!

Xx. Lillie

Xx. Lillie